Thursday, February 24, 2005
my best shot when i went to cebu last january, 2005 
welcome to my lair... this is my room though u dont see it, just the door ayt?!
R | E | S | U | R | R | E | C | T | I | O | N
IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS SINCE I LAST POSTED AND ENTRY HERE!
and it feels a little awkward now to even write one again.
but.. but i decided to continue again ma bloggin adventure
reflecting on the comments before,
i did not start so badly..
so why stop right?!
two months have passed...
two months of experiences...
two months of acquaintances...
two months of trials...
two months of heartaches...
two months of love...
two months of gimiks...
two months of escapades and sex-capades(darn!)...
to sum it all up,
it's been two months since u last heard from ur
blogging maestro joy ed!
(i'm liftin my own chair ayt?! bleh!)
so let's start bloggin...
astro boy... signing in again!
and it feels a little awkward now to even write one again.
but.. but i decided to continue again ma bloggin adventure
reflecting on the comments before,
i did not start so badly..
so why stop right?!
two months have passed...
two months of experiences...
two months of acquaintances...
two months of trials...
two months of heartaches...
two months of love...
two months of gimiks...
two months of escapades and sex-capades(darn!)...
to sum it all up,
it's been two months since u last heard from ur
blogging maestro joy ed!
(i'm liftin my own chair ayt?! bleh!)
so let's start bloggin...
astro boy... signing in again!
[+++ fightin against time +++]
[++ wanting your love+++]
astro boy
R | E | S | U |R|R|ECTION
Sunday, September 05, 2004
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Thursday, September 02, 2004
cursed(course) cards attacks
10:30 am
i woke up from sleep.
from the moment i woke up,
all i kept on thinking about were my grades...
oh shit, my course cards are to be given today.
i took a bath,
ate my breakfast,
chose the clothes that i would be wearin',
arranegd my hair,
wore my shoes and wore my shades.
atleast i would look good even if i know that
the today would be hell for me.
i rode the jeepney on the way to school.
i was atleast relieved that i had my bestfriend peter accompanying me.
from the house proper...to the frontgates of la salle...
alli was thinking about were my grades.
a lot of decisions are to be made once i got hold of those
seven cursed course cards!
i first went to get my very first course card.
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DESTINATION: hrdo
i first got my course card in NSTP-C2...
i just got a 3.0!
it was unfair on my part coz there are "free riders" who got a higher grade than me.
tell me, how would ou feel if...
first:
you were absent in class for two days just to finish the term end report ALL BY YOURSELF!
second:
you were to bring for two successive meetings,a big subwoofer and 2 speakers, while your other blockmates re just bringing themselves.
third:
you were to conceptualize the whole project and work on the work plan ALL BY YOURSELF!
fourth:
to make the design to be given out as flyers for the auditions ALL BY YOURSELF!
fifth:
plan all the agendas for the next community visit and think of what to do ALL BY YOURSELF!
sixth:
you were to do 80% of all the work needed to be done for the project to be successful!
f**k! sh*t!
and then you get just a 3.0!
and then you ask those free riders...
joy ed: what is your grade in c2?
free rider:3.5!
joy ed: *cannot speak anymore because of anger!*
f**k! sh*t!
i really think that i deserve a much higher grade than just 3.0!
but maybe God has a reason for that.
to make those free riders realize that...
THEY DO NOT DESERVE THEIR GRADES
AND THEY SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF THEMSELVES
FOR ACCEPTIN THE GRADE
THAT THEY KNOW THEY DON'T DESERVE!
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DESTINATION: history department!
haha!
it was funny how i found what my grade was in jprizal..
i wa late for the distribution so i had to look for it in the history department
coz my teacher left already...
then i saked my friend peter to look for my course card..
he asked what my section was..
i said C34...
he was unable to look for my grade...
i started panickin!
then i suddenly remember that...
my section is C43...
look how stupid one could get!
then he searched for my section,
found my course card...
and i got a 3.5!
though i was expectin a 4.0...
i'm fine with it!
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DESTINATION: CCS faculty room!
likewise, i was again late for the distribution of my
MANACON course card...
i saw the IT course card tray and i did not have a hard time looking for my grade..
i got a 1.0!
i was expectin a 2.o though ....
im fine with it!
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
DESTINATION:CCS Conference Room A
compro1...
i saw ms. shirley piling up the folders of the machine projects..
i then remembered i did not submit one!
i was expectin a failing grade...
and i was not wrong..
she gave the course card to me and she said...
"sorry joy ed, i cannot help you anymore."
and with ms.shirley sayin that...
i left the room blaming myself for what happened.
damned for good!
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
DESTINATION:yuchenco 404
we waited for almost an hour to know that our teacher...
just left our course cards in her p-hole!
damn, one hour of waiting!
waiting for nothing!
well atleast i was so happy to see my course card coz...
guess what?
my encomp2 grade...
i got a 4.o!
perfect, just as what i wanted it to be!
thanks mam sterling plata!
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well i did not bother to get my course cards in anmath1 and maccoms...
coz i know that i failed.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
ill just be blamin maself again for constantly failing...
failing my grades...
failing my mom's hopes...
failing my own expectations...
i woke up from sleep.
from the moment i woke up,
all i kept on thinking about were my grades...
oh shit, my course cards are to be given today.
i took a bath,
ate my breakfast,
chose the clothes that i would be wearin',
arranegd my hair,
wore my shoes and wore my shades.
atleast i would look good even if i know that
the today would be hell for me.
i rode the jeepney on the way to school.
i was atleast relieved that i had my bestfriend peter accompanying me.
from the house proper...to the frontgates of la salle...
alli was thinking about were my grades.
a lot of decisions are to be made once i got hold of those
seven cursed course cards!
i first went to get my very first course card.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
DESTINATION: hrdo
i first got my course card in NSTP-C2...
i just got a 3.0!
it was unfair on my part coz there are "free riders" who got a higher grade than me.
tell me, how would ou feel if...
first:
you were absent in class for two days just to finish the term end report ALL BY YOURSELF!
second:
you were to bring for two successive meetings,a big subwoofer and 2 speakers, while your other blockmates re just bringing themselves.
third:
you were to conceptualize the whole project and work on the work plan ALL BY YOURSELF!
fourth:
to make the design to be given out as flyers for the auditions ALL BY YOURSELF!
fifth:
plan all the agendas for the next community visit and think of what to do ALL BY YOURSELF!
sixth:
you were to do 80% of all the work needed to be done for the project to be successful!
f**k! sh*t!
and then you get just a 3.0!
and then you ask those free riders...
joy ed: what is your grade in c2?
free rider:3.5!
joy ed: *cannot speak anymore because of anger!*
f**k! sh*t!
i really think that i deserve a much higher grade than just 3.0!
but maybe God has a reason for that.
to make those free riders realize that...
THEY DO NOT DESERVE THEIR GRADES
AND THEY SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF THEMSELVES
FOR ACCEPTIN THE GRADE
THAT THEY KNOW THEY DON'T DESERVE!
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
DESTINATION: history department!
haha!
it was funny how i found what my grade was in jprizal..
i wa late for the distribution so i had to look for it in the history department
coz my teacher left already...
then i saked my friend peter to look for my course card..
he asked what my section was..
i said C34...
he was unable to look for my grade...
i started panickin!
then i suddenly remember that...
my section is C43...
look how stupid one could get!
then he searched for my section,
found my course card...
and i got a 3.5!
though i was expectin a 4.0...
i'm fine with it!
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
DESTINATION: CCS faculty room!
likewise, i was again late for the distribution of my
MANACON course card...
i saw the IT course card tray and i did not have a hard time looking for my grade..
i got a 1.0!
i was expectin a 2.o though ....
im fine with it!
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
DESTINATION:CCS Conference Room A
compro1...
i saw ms. shirley piling up the folders of the machine projects..
i then remembered i did not submit one!
i was expectin a failing grade...
and i was not wrong..
she gave the course card to me and she said...
"sorry joy ed, i cannot help you anymore."
and with ms.shirley sayin that...
i left the room blaming myself for what happened.
damned for good!
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
DESTINATION:yuchenco 404
we waited for almost an hour to know that our teacher...
just left our course cards in her p-hole!
damn, one hour of waiting!
waiting for nothing!
well atleast i was so happy to see my course card coz...
guess what?
my encomp2 grade...
i got a 4.o!
perfect, just as what i wanted it to be!
thanks mam sterling plata!
- - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - - - - -
well i did not bother to get my course cards in anmath1 and maccoms...
coz i know that i failed.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
ill just be blamin maself again for constantly failing...
failing my grades...
failing my mom's hopes...
failing my own expectations...
[+++fightin against time+++]
[++wanting your love++]
astro boy
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
hehe. ma breath freshener and shades commercial pic *in ma dreams*
awakened by a phone call!
i had a funny experience this morning...
while i was still on the realm of sleeping...
the phone rang
and it made me wake up coz the phone is just
beside my right ear!
you know how loud it can get right!
haha, and it's a call from my new friend ANDREW
he's from st. jude college
he got my number from one of my net websites
though i was a little bit shy talking to a person whom i do not literally know,
the conversation went without flaw.
i spoke with him though i felt a lil mad
coz my sleep was disturbed!
but it was also nice to talk to
a new friend.
to my shock,
he admitted that he has a crush on me!
that's why he had the nerve calling me...
waah!
feelings of anger,
shyness, weirdness
and anxiety
crept allover my body.
why am i prone to the same sex these past few days!
i mean, i'mnot that good looking ayt?!
but
why do i seem to be a bisexual magnet these past few days?!
well, our conversation lasted for an hour...
he should have gone to his 8 o' clock to 1 o' clock class
but he chose to talk to me!
waaaaah! i feel bad!
he said he has to go to school so he'll call me again at 8 pm.
then the conversation ended.
i dunno if he really is calling me tonight.
and i do not know if i would still talk to him.
i dunno.
oh my god, what's happenin to my lovelife?
but wait,
am i that popular to the bi- world?
while i was still on the realm of sleeping...
the phone rang
and it made me wake up coz the phone is just
beside my right ear!
you know how loud it can get right!
haha, and it's a call from my new friend ANDREW
he's from st. jude college
he got my number from one of my net websites
though i was a little bit shy talking to a person whom i do not literally know,
the conversation went without flaw.
i spoke with him though i felt a lil mad
coz my sleep was disturbed!
but it was also nice to talk to
a new friend.
to my shock,
he admitted that he has a crush on me!
that's why he had the nerve calling me...
waah!
feelings of anger,
shyness, weirdness
and anxiety
crept allover my body.
why am i prone to the same sex these past few days!
i mean, i'mnot that good looking ayt?!
but
why do i seem to be a bisexual magnet these past few days?!
well, our conversation lasted for an hour...
he should have gone to his 8 o' clock to 1 o' clock class
but he chose to talk to me!
waaaaah! i feel bad!
he said he has to go to school so he'll call me again at 8 pm.
then the conversation ended.
i dunno if he really is calling me tonight.
and i do not know if i would still talk to him.
i dunno.
oh my god, what's happenin to my lovelife?
but wait,
am i that popular to the bi- world?
[+++fightin against time+++]
[++wanting your love++]
astro boy
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
HE has a crush on me! :x
i was very excited to open my friendster account tonight and guess what. i had two new friend requests(so that means i now have 301 friends in my second account!yey!) and i had 1 new message. i was really curious about coz it came from a freindster user named ClubngMalibogII! haha! someone in friendster got interested with my pic.he, as in H-E, messaged me and here's how the message goes:
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from: ClubngMalibogII
Date:
August 30, 2004 6:16 PM
Subject:asl
Message:
aslpls
may i have ur cp number
ur kinda cute
ar u effem? or discreet bi?
im 19 yo dscreet bi
from sampaloc manila near espana
+++++++++++++++++++++++
haha, i ws really surprised with the message coz he said that i was kinda cute?! i am not cute! haha! i think he needs to realize that. maybe he was just blind or he may have eye defect that made him see me as a cute guy! whew! you'll never know what messages you will get from friendster. maybe this is the result of my being friendly. i can even attract members of the "in-between sexes" in short "homosexuals". well guys, tell me if it's good or bad? should i be offended? or should i appreciate the fact that HE has a crush on me?
+++++++++++++++++++++++
from: ClubngMalibogII
Date:
August 30, 2004 6:16 PM
Subject:asl
Message:
aslpls
may i have ur cp number
ur kinda cute
ar u effem? or discreet bi?
im 19 yo dscreet bi
from sampaloc manila near espana
+++++++++++++++++++++++
haha, i ws really surprised with the message coz he said that i was kinda cute?! i am not cute! haha! i think he needs to realize that. maybe he was just blind or he may have eye defect that made him see me as a cute guy! whew! you'll never know what messages you will get from friendster. maybe this is the result of my being friendly. i can even attract members of the "in-between sexes" in short "homosexuals". well guys, tell me if it's good or bad? should i be offended? or should i appreciate the fact that HE has a crush on me?
[+++fightin against time+++]
[++wanting your love++]
astro boy
astro boy
Monday, August 30, 2004
ma group, djkepz as we posed for a moment in wow philippines in intramuros. that was just last saturday. we went to the venue where zheela would be hosting her debut party. hehe, excited. the place is awesome. it kinda reminds me though... i still dont have the suit im goin to wear.. and worst, i still dont have money to buy her a gift..
[+++fightin against time+++]
[++wanting your love++]
astro boy
btw, here's my url. a lot of ma photos are uploaded there. it has always been my dream to be an actor someday or atleast do some commercials with some of the famous commercial models. hehe, well of course it's a dream. it may or may not come true ayt?! hope a talent scout passes by my account haha.
[+++fightin against time+++]
[++wanting your love++]
astro boy
deliciously delicious! posin at peter's haus, ma good friend peter. this is his room. i kinda felt the "artista in me" at that moment so i posed for some shots.
[+++fightin against time+++]
[++wanting your love++]
astro boy
Sunday, August 29, 2004
a boring monday!
what a way to start the week!
BORED!
that's what i feel.
after discovering my "purpose" last friday and saturday,
how come i still feel empty
useless
a teenage dirtbag!
an unuseful pile of body parts
a mere trash!
a pain in the ass!
and one more thing to add up to my boredom...
I'M BROKE!
i don't know if i can still go on like this.
ma mom ain't givin me money to sustain my wants...
err the needs she gives it basically.
and now,
im updating my blog,
i suddenly remember that i have a meeting!
oh f*ck!
i almost forgot.
i have to go now!
ill be writin sumthin again tonyt.
[+++fightin against time+++]
[++wanting your love++]
astro boy
bad bwoy for Lyf
FRIDAY August 27, 2004
after being a professional BUM the entire day,
i finally decided to get out of the couch and have some fun,
it's my term break anyway.
i decided to go to malate and look for a bar there to get the boredom i felt that evening.
take note: I WENT THERE ALONE.
i really am bored that night and my saliva was like smelling so bad
so i stopped over starbuck's in front of legend to get myself ma
favorite strawberries and cream! *tsup*
after that, i smoked. just two sticks though.
ill be spending the other 18 sticks inside the bar. hehe.
i passed by j. bocobo street and noticed this bar
it seems to have a lot of the male species outside of the bar
BIOLOGY BAR
that's the name.
out of curiosity,
i decided to go inside the bar and spend my night & morning,ofcourse
there in that bar.
well, guess what, the owner of the bar is a good friend of mine
arnie.
he's famous in malate for his sex tantrics when he was still young.
but now, he just settles to a profession that seems to give fun to the members of the "in-between sexes".
i paid a hundred bucks, got a stamp in my hand and a stub for a bottle of beer.
then in i go.
it was like 11 pm and the place was still not that crowded,
you can still feel the aircon touching your skin.
i went to the bar, got ma drinks and then sat on the chair,
lit ma first stick out of 18 sticks the that i would be consuming.
i was watching the crowd in the place.
they seem straight but i know that something fishy is going on.
they were looking at each other,
seems to me that they re like looking for the best looking person in the place.
they were ofcourse also looking at me*wink*
hehe
i went upstairs, and guess what?
to my shock
I saw guys kissing each other while i was passing through the stairs.
there were even some guys in the stairs waiting for their
"partner-in-sex-to-be"
*shivers*
the next event should not be retold here.
but i must admit that
all the experiences that i have witnessed that night
were informative and made me realize a lot of things.
this world has a lot to offer
not only for
heterosexuals
but also for
homosexuals.
that night was unforgettable.
it made me come back the next day.
just for fun maybe.
or out of
curiosity.
[+++fightin against time+++]
[++wanting your love++]
astro boy
fightin against...boredom!
these past few days,
ive been really bored of my life.
it seems that ive no purpose in living.
well i definitely tried to search for my purpose...
luckily i found a part of my mission in life.
guess what?
i found it at the most unusual place anyone would think of...
malate
it seems that i was made to give joy to others.
i went to this bar and
guess what...
hehe, i had fun...
adult fun
guess i need not yo tell it here coz i might get caught by ma parents or
maybe my wholesome image be scarred for the worst!well,
i dont wanna elaborate anymore with the escapades that i went through that night.
the post might get censored by the MTRCB.
haha!
ill just post another more "wholesome " post after i finish this.
i really have a lot of stories.
you cant blame me,
i have not been online for like
two days
and i'm weakend by that!
my life is connected with the
internet.
i guess with a course like mine,
i really think that anyone would have that sameconnection with the computer.
my course,
that's another issue!
[+++fightin against time+++]
[++wanting your love++]
astro boy
